Is it all really worth it?

Lately, between college and work, i feel like I've been burning both ends of the wick. I'm not able to sleep at night for some unknown reason, yet i'm sleeping in every morning and i'm missing early classes at college as a result.

On Friday night just gone, I couldn't get to sleep until 4a.m. and then i slept in 'til 9a.m. on Saturday. You might not think there's anything wrong with that but my alarm was set for half 7, I was due in work at 9.20 and it takes 15 minutes to drive in! Plus the regional manager (grrrr) was down an he is never, ever happy! I made it in by the skin of my teeth but I had no make up on, my shirt wasn't ironed and I had no lunch with me, meaning I would have to use one of my breaks just to go get food and then wait another two hours before I could actually eat it. Needless to say, I was not exactly in a favourable mood.

So now I'm back to college on Monday and I'm hoping it goes better for me this week than it did the last one. In fairness though, last week we were swamped with assignments and I had just taken on extra hours in work. Nearly every night I was up 'til about 3a.m working on the assignments but when I was finished for the night, despite my excrutiating tiredness, I could not sleep. Then Tuesday, Thursday and Friday I worked extra hours straight after college and then came home to spend more time on my projects. It was all a bit mental but I think this week will be the real test.

We don't have as much on this week, although we still have one project to submit and one presentation to pitch, so if I'm still struggling I think something will have to give. Inevitably, that something will be work. I asked for extra hours because the money would certainly be helpful for Christmas but this whole thing of doing 21hours a week in work on top of my college work might prove a bit to much to handle. It's easy for people to look at at a post like this and say I'm silly for taking on so much and college should be the most important thing etc.. and I agree that it should be but you have to feed and clothe yourself ya know! Not everyone gets hand outs from the bank of mammy and daddy!

I don't really know where I'm going with this it just feels good to have a rant and get it out! I dunno, I just wonder if it's all really worth it.....